giving you what you want

[carneouspuella]

[ WHO ]: Visi and YOU!
[ WHERE ]: The apartments - your choice of your own, an empty one you were exploring, or the hallways!
[ WHEN ]: 3AM on April 6th
[ OPEN/CLOSED? ]: OPEN!
[ RATING ]: PG for now. Will change if anything happens.
[ WARNINGS ]: DEATH, posthumous dismemberment, gore, uncomfortable descriptions of Fleshchildren.
[ NOTES ]: IF YOU ARE PLAYING A HUMAN FEMALE AND TAG THIS!! Please specify if you want Visi to see you as inhuman or not! She will attempt to kill and take bodyparts otherwise!


[Her head is lying back in her own apartment, the long black locks slowly turning to gold. There is no safe place to contain it right now, and she can only hope it will be all right for her getting back to it.]

[Her entire body is flesh, now. She is not wearing her shift. The only thing she has with her is her butcher's knife, held securely in the flesh at the end of her arm. She hasn't quite got the hang of hands just yet, but she's getting close.]

[Up and down the corridors she goes, her feet making little sticking sounds as she walks. Every so often, she'll stop, listen, and then collapse into a puddle and attempt to slither under the door of an apartment.]

[Maybe you've just seen her do this. Or maybe you'll wake up to find her staring down at you while you sleep.]

[Who knows.]

Comments

[etudes]

[ Well, Kotomi's dreams are sometimes weird too. So she doesn't think much of it. But the moving dolls in her room sound pretty scary.. ]

Um.. well, sometimes at night there's this weird feeling, like I'm.. drowning or something. [ .. hmm.. her expression turns a little more downcast. ] I wonder if it has to do with mother and father..

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[Not having lungs, Visi can't really comment. She does, however, know what it's like to have a parent.]

What happened to your mother and father?

[etudes]

..

[ For a moment she's quiet. Her hands on her lap tightly grasp the fabric of the sheets, and when she speaks up her voice isn't as blank as it usually is. ]

They.. had an accident. And because of that, they both sunk to the bottom of the sea.. and died.

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[Visi is also quiet for long moments.]

I see.

[She gently puts the tip of her forelimb on Kotomi's shoulder.]

I would be sad if my parent died, too. It must have been horrible.

IT'S SO CUTE YET SO WRONG.

[etudes]

It was really weird and scary to suddenly have them not be there anymore.. and.. it was really lonely too, since I didn't have any siblings or friends..

[ So she just sat inside 24/7 reading books. And this is why wouldn't even be alarmed by something looking like Visi.. ]

.. I don't like that time at all.

AHAHAHA A GIRL AND HER FLESHFRIEND...

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[Squelch pat.]

I haven't lived for long, and this is the longest I have been away from my parent. I... miss their encompassing protection and encouragement, but it is exhilarating to be out on my own.

[etudes]

Isn't missing them the worst though..? [ Kotomi's never wanted freedom. She's the kind of obedient girl who would prefer being sheltered and protected by the people close to her forever rather than having to do anything on her own. Somehow that only makes Visi more amazing though.. ] You aren't scared?

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I don't really understand fear.

[She pushes herself off the bed.]

It's unnerving and dangerous here. I think it must be like that. And I think... it wouldn't be so bad, if I could go home to their all encompassing love.

... Is it like that?

[etudes]

[ .. Don't.. understand it? Could it be that she's just never felt fear before? For someone like Kotomi, who wibbles at the slightest thing anyone says to her, it's almost impossible to imagine what it's like to not know fear, really.. ]

Yeah.. it's like that. You've never felt that..? Not even one moment?

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[She thinks.]

No... not at all.

Not once.

[etudes]

.. You're.. brave. I could never do something like that.. [ She stares down at the covers. ] I actually feel that sort of thing a lot..

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Try to stop feeling it? [She doesn't know if humans can do that, but...] Try to go to a place where you don't feel it.

[etudes]

A place..? [ .. hmm.. ] Well.. I don't think there's a place like that, but.. I have something like it. I don't feel it as much when I'm around Battler-kun, I guess..

[carneouspuella]

Then you should think about how you feel around Battler-kun, then.

[etudes]

But it's not like I can just start that feeling like that.. [ She prods her chest a little, as if that'll make it happen, but of course nothing happens. ]

It only starts during those moments.

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Can't you imagine it? [She tilts her head.] Dream it?

[etudes]

... Imagine..?

[ Kotomi's not too good at this, okay. ]

But how am I supposed to imagine it? It always just starts suddenly..

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[Neither is Visi, really.]

I just... think about being in my polyp, I suppose.

[It's invigorating to be free, but to be surrounded by that parental love is something calming, relaxing. She misses it.]

[etudes]

[ She's thinking about the sea animal kind.. although she doesn't know why anyone would want to be in that either, but hey, maybe she likes diving? ]

At first I always tried to think of being with my parents, but.. that was just sad. I was just reminded that they'll never come back..

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[At a loss of how to respond, she pats Kotomi awkwardly on the shoulder once more.]